Just wanted to say HI  / Kayla Tipton (friend)
Hey there Jordan..Its been awhile since Ive wrote you. Things have been pretty hectic latley... Its not that I dont think about you because I do..But one thing that has been a pretty good thing is that im four months pregnant. Its not something I planned on doing it just kind of happend. Its pretty exciting! Gavin is doing awsome..He is absolutly beautiful! Tai is lucky....I hope everything goes well for me. I hope your family is doing good..expecially your mom. Well just wanted to say hi...
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LOVE YOU!  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
HELLO LIL MAN
I JUST WANTED TO SHARE A FEW THINGS WITH YOU & TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU MORE EVERYDAY, IF THAT IS POSSIBLE!
THANKSGIVING WAS BEAUTIFUL. GRANDMA HAD A HOUSE FULL, FOR SURE! I THINK IT IS GETTING HARDER FOR HER. SO MANY OF US THESE DAYZ. DON'T WORRY IF YOU WERE HERE WE WOULD STILL HAVE MADE ROOM FOR YOU! LOL..I SEE  THE 17 (ALMOST) YEAR OLDS WITH THEIR BOYFRIENDS & RISS & STEPH & I JUST CANT BELIEVE THEY ARE OLD ENOUGH YET. TIME IS JUST FLYING BY. IT'S BEEN OVER 2 YEARS SINCE YOU LEFT US. IT STILL FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY SOMETIMES.
MIKE SLEPT IN YOU R BED FOR 2 NIGHTS. I BET NEVER IN A MILLION YERAS, YOU WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT HE WOULD BE BACK. WHEN I SAY BACK, I DO MEAN BACK, AS "HIMSELF". HE LAUGHED & HAD SO, SO MUCH FUN. HE IS BACK TO THE MIKE WE KNEW BEFORE HE LEFT US  YEARS AGO. HE IS JUST SO DIFFERENT & I LOVE IT. NOW I JUST WISH HE WAS BACK HERE FOR GOOD. I CAN NOT BLAME ANYONE FOR THE WAY HE CHANGED WHEN HE LEFT. HE SHOULD OF ALWAYS STAYED THE WAY HE WAS. I THINK THAT HE WAS  JUST ALWAYS TRYING TO FIT IN WITH HIS AST LIFE. A PLACE WHERE"HONESTLY, BUB", I KNEW IT WASN'T HIM. I KNEW WITHIN A YEAR,THAT THE LIFE HE HAD CHOSEN WAS NOT RIGHT FOR HIM. NO ONE IS AT FAULT HERE, IT WAS JUST ANOTHER PART OF LIFE. MY HEART IS WITH ANYONE WHO WAS  DAMAGED BY THIS. 
I THOUGT OF YOU WHILE WE WERE OUT SHOPPPING  FIRDAY. THOSE UNCLES OF YOURS, GOOD GOD, YOU WERE PROBABLY ROLLING LAUGHING. WATCHING THEM SHOP IN THOSE CROWDS & STAND IN THOSE LONG  LINES. THERE WERE A FEW GUYS OUT THAT MORNING, I'M PROUD OF THEM. WE WALKED PAST PACSUN & I WNATED TO JUST LOOK IN TO SEE IF YOU WERE THERE. I REMEMBER DOING THAT EVRY TIME I CAME TO THE MALL, POPPING IN TO SEE WHAT YOU NEEDED. MONEY, SOMETHIN TO EAT, WHAT YOU FOUND THAT YOU  WANTED ME TO BUY FOR YOU. I'D STILL BE DOING IT. YOU WOULD BE IN COLLEGE & STILL WORKING AT PACSUN OR A.E.
I WENT TO SEE CONNIE AT MARK'S SISTERS. SHE DID REAL WELL FOR HER CONDITION. I HOPE & THATS ALL I CAN DO, IS THAT SHE DOES NOT SUFFER FOR A LONG TIME BUB.SHE IS ALREADY SO TINY & FRAIL.
I HAVE TODAY OFF, I THINK I AM HEADING TO COLUMBUS. NOT TO FAR INTO COLUMBUS, BUT I NEED TO GO. I WANTED TO DECORATE THE CEMETERY THIS WEEK, WE WILL SEE ABOUT THE RAIN. ITS SUPPOSE TO RAIN ALL WEEK, I THINK.
WELL SWEETHEART I BETTER HEAD OFF TO THE SHOWER. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY!!
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You Always Know  / Anita Riley (Aunt)
I've been unpacking my house the past few days. You know I am afraid to do that, because I hate having to pack it all back up to move. One of these days soon, I'll never have to do that again. Some of our special times together when you were older, were in the first house I was ever buying on my own.  Those are Chels and Riss's memories too.  But I came across the rest of your pics last night. And today they will be hanging on my bedroom wall next to the fireplace. It will be good to have your sweet face smiling down at me when I go to sleep.  It's so funny how your smile seeps through my heart at just the right moments. And how I see you comfort others when they need it at just the thought of something silly you once did. Yes, you should be here. But you're not. And it hurts so bad.  You should be finished with college by now. Or going onto your next adventure.  I think about that when I am struggling with something in college. If I get lucky enough to take that walk in another year, for my pinning, I am going to wear a little bunch of blue forget-me-nots on  for you, for the college grad. you should have had. Everyone in this family has special memories of you. Especially the younger ones, isn't that just how you were.  You were special that way. I love you so much. We have to be the most blessed family I know. Not everyone has the memories of one another that we all do. You were a precious part of all of us. And you always will be sweetie. Continue to guide me. Continue to be that ray of sunshine on my darkest days. I imagine you walking beside Jesus and playing with all the little ones up there, little ones whose parents are still with us here on this wretched earth. I'm sad, along with everyone else here without you, but I am also happy knowing you are not here in this mess with the rest of us. Jesus said that he prepares a place for us with him up there, and I know you are helping Him do that. The joy you must feel in doing so for those of us who love you so. That's just you. Little man with a big heart. Always. Love you bub.  Close

Memory Candles  / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Connected by our angels )
Dear Susan,
On Thanksgiving, we light four candles in memory of Lauren, I just thought it would be nice to share with you because I know how difficult this time of year can be for so many of us. God Bless you, your family and your precious Jodan throughout the holiday season. 

As we light these four candles in honor of you, we light one for our GRIEF, one for our COURAGE, one for our MEMORIES and one for our LOVE.

This candle represents our GRIEF. The pain of losing you is intense. It reminds us of the depth of our love for you.

This candle represents our COURAGE – to confront our sorrow. to comfort each other, to change our lives.

This light is in your MEMORY – the times we laughed, the times we cried, the times we were angry with each other, the silly things you did, the caring and joy you gave us.

This light is for the light of LOVE.

As we enter this holiday season, day by day we cherish the special place in our hearts that will always be reserved for you. We thank you for the gift your living brought to each of us. We love you.

~ Holiday Help: Coping for the Bereaved, by Sherry Gibson, B.S., R.N. and Sandra Graves, Ph.D.
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HAPPY THANKSGIVING , MY LITTLE TURKEY!  / YOUR MOMMA~ LOVE YOU SO MUCH (MOM)
HELLO SWEETIE,
I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF YOU ALOT. THESE HOLIDAY'S ARE ROUGH!! THIS THANKSGIVING WILL BE A LITTLE DIFFERENT, MIKE WILL BE HOME FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS & I AM SO AFRAID THAT IT WILL BE MARK'S MOM'S LAST ONE. I WILL GO OVER TO SEE HER TODAY. MY HEART IS SO BROKE. SHE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME.I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER SUFFER.... PLEASE BUB DO SOMETHING... JUST BE WITH HER. 
TIM IS STUCK WHERE HE IS & LOST ONE OF HIS VERY BEST FRIENDS. I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM. BE WITH HIM ALSO, GIVE HIM SOME COMFORT, YOU KNEW WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO LOSE A GOOD FRIEND.
MIKE IS NOT HERE YET. HE DIDN'T GET ANY SLEEP YESTERDAY & WAS GOING TO DRIVE ABOUT 4 HRS. PLEASE KEEP YOUR EYES ON HIM ALSO. THE WEATHER IS GOING TO GET NASTY, I PRAY HE GETS HERE SAFE. 
I JUST WISH YOU WERE HERE, SO I WOULDN'T HAVE TO GO THRU THIS PAIN. YOU SHOULD BE HERE WITH THE REST OF US BUB. HAVING DINNER WITH US, GOING SHOPPPING IN THE MORNING WITH US. BOTH OF YOUR UNCLES HERE & WITH YOU. YOU WOULD BE SO HAPPY, I KNOW. YOU WOULD BE LIVING HERE WITH ME, STILL .. I KNOW. I WOULD BE FINE WITH THAT. 
EVERYONE IS HAVING BABIES NOW. TAI, KAYLA & THEN THERE IS DUSTIN. I KNOW THAT YOU WOULD STILL NOT BE READY FOR THAT. YOU PROBABLY IF YOU EVER DID, WOULD NOT HAVE ONE UNTIL YOU WERE 30 OR SO. LOOK AT TIM, HE IS DOING SO MUCH WITH HIS LIFE. NO KIDS & HE CAN DO WHAT EVER HE WANTS.
I WILL BE AT YOUR GRAVE TODAY, FOR A LITTLE WHILE. IT'S SUPPOSE TO GET REAL COLD. I HAVE THINGS TO MAKE YOUR GRAVE BLANKET, I WILL HAVE TO GET STARTED ON IT SOON. ALL THESE HRS. ARE STARTING TO VANISH SOME. I AM LAYED OFF NEXT WEEK & ONLY WORK 13 HRS. AT THE DEPOT & THEN OMLY 5 THERE THE NEXT WEEK. SO I AM STARTING TO GET A BREAK. I AHVE SO MUCH TO DO. THE HOUSE IS COMING TOGETHER, SLOW BUT SURE. I HAVE ALOT OF DECORATING TO DO. MAYBE I WONT GO ALL OUT. NO ONE IS EVER HERE  ANYWAY. MAYBE I WILL HAVE MARK'S FAMILY HERE FOR DINNER  AT CHRISTMAS. CONNIE ALWAYS HAS IT AT HER HOUSE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF SHE WILL EVEN FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING BY THEN. 
WELL I WANTED TO SAY I LOVE YOU & HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I MISS  YOU SO, SO MUCH BUB!! CHELSI MADE ME CRY. I LOVE THE FACT THAT SHE NEVER FORGET'S. YOU AFFECTED HER LIFE, GIVE HER A BIG HUGE HUG & LET HER KNOW THAT YOU LOVE HER ALSO....
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I MIss You  / Chelsi Riley (cusion)
well i messed up real bad on that last one so heres a new one.
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I miss you  / Chelsi Riley (cusion)
heyy jordy
its almost thanksgiving and im really starting to miss u i kknow we wasnt real close but it is weird being at grandmas w/out u there.i remember when when u bebysat me and we took a huge walk and ended p forever away from our house.i also remember going to your funreal and lookin at ur mom and trying so hard not to cry even though i was little is till knew what it felt like to lose you. I love   you Jordy! Close

I'm sorry  / Tai Loughman (friend)
Hey buddy... I'm so sorry its been so long since I've gotten on here. It doesn't mean I don't think about you though. 
My Gavin is finally here... he's so beautiful and healthy too. THank you. You musta talked to the big guy up there for me. 

The holidays are quickly approaching and I was thinking about a few years ago when Kayla and I were looking for you and Adam's christmas presents and how much trouble we had trying to figure out what we were going to get you guys with the little amount of money we had. And then you got Kayla that picture frame with the magnents (that she still has). You guys were so perfect for each other.

I just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you!

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Thanksgiving Blessings  / Jo-Ann Pacenta Lauren's Mom (Precious Memorials )
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HELLO , SWEETHEART!  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
HEY BUB,
HOW'S MY LITTLE MAN THIS MORNING? GOOD, I AM SURE!!I HAVE A VERY BUSY COUPLE WEEKS AHEAD OF ME, BUT DON'T WORRY HONEY, YOU WILL STILL BE WITH ME THE WHOLE OF IT.SOMETIMES I WONDER HOW I CAN KEEP DOING ALL THIS. I SUFFER SOMEWHAT & YOUR SISTER'S SUFFER ALSO. I SO FAR WILL MISS CHEY'S FIRST 4 BALL GAMES, "WHAT HAVE I DONE BUB?" I KNOW GOD WILL LEAD ME & LET ME KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT OR WRONG. I AM HARDLY EVER HOME. I CANNOT PLAN A THING. EVERY WEEKEND IS WORK & EVERYDAY IN BETWEEN.  IT'S BEEN 2 MONTHS NOW & I AM STARTING TO FEEL IT FOR SURE. I AM SCARED ABOUT IT. I WILL HANG IN THERE,I HAVE TO FOR NOW. I AM SO TIRED, TIRED OF WORK, SO, SO TIRED OF GRIEF!! I THINK I NEED TO MAKE A FEW CHANGES. I SPEND SO MUCH TIME GRIEVING YOU, THAT IT TAKES SO MUCH ENERGY FROM ME, STILL! I THOUGHT AFTER TWO YEARS IT WOULD SUBSIDE SOME, BUT BUB, IT HASN'T. MAYBE IT'S ME, MAYBE I STILL HAVE NOT ACCEPTED THAT YOU ARE TRULT GONE. I TRY TO, I DO, I PROMISE. I NEED TO JUST LET IT ALL GO. I ALWAYS FEEL SO GUILTY IF I DON'T GET ON HERE LIKE I USE TO.I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN TO YOUR GRAVE, I FEEL GUILTY ALL THE TIME. I JUST NEED YOU TO KNOW MY LOVE, THAT YOU ARE STILL ALWAYS RIGHT HERE IN MY HEART, THAT YOU WERE & WILL ALWAYS BE,A VERY, VERY HUGE, PART OF ME. WHETHER YOU ARE STILL HERE OR NOT, YOU ARE INSIDE OF ME, ALWAYS GROWING, LIKE A CANCER OR SOMETHING. YOU WILL NEVER GO AWAY. I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT. BUT, I KNOW YOU KNOW!                         STAY WITH ME, PUSH ME, IF YOU HAVE TO. KEEP ME GOING BUB. I NEED YOU AS MUCH AS YOU NEED ME. YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME, THAT WHEN I GOT OLD YOU WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME. THAT YOU WOULD MOVE ME IN WITH YOU & ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF ME. I WILL NEVER FORGET THOSE WORDS. I AM READY NOW, YOU CAN TAKE ME IN & TAKE CARE OF ME NOW O.K.
WELL ITS GONNA BE A LONG  2DAYS, SO I BETTER GET IT STARTED. 
I LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE IN ME !!
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Happy Thanksgiving JORDY  / Mary Russell (Gramma)

Hey Big Guy, I always want to say my little guy,SORRY! I like rembering you as my little guy,and oh how I wish you still were! If we could only turn back the time,it would be so good. I think of you everyday,but haven't been on here for a while,like your Mom said everything is so hectic!! We are about to come on to yet another Holiday w/out you and its so un-fair to your Mom and sisters and everyone else,but we have had to learn to live w/out you,and know that your up there with your Grand parent and Great Grand parents and I know they are taking good care of you,especially Gramma Sidwell,she thought you were the greatest little guy. Mike might be w/us this holiday and if not he will be here come Christmas along w/Tim,and John,and we will say Prayers upon Prayers for you,and think of you constantly. Love you for always Bubby!!
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ALWAYS & FOREVER  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
MY DEAREST JORDAN,
WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE? THIS WILL BE OUR SECOND  YEAR WITHOUT YOU DURING THE  HOLIDAYS. THEY WILL BE AMONG US SO SOON & ALL THE SUDDEN IN A BLINK OF THE EYE, THEY WILL BE GONE AGAIN. ALL THE HUSTLE & BUSTLE & THEN, IT'S OVER. EVERYONE IS IN SUCH A RUSH. EVERYONE IS USUALLY SO TIRED & STRESSED, THAT WE DO NOT GET TO ENJOY THESE TIMES TOGETHER LIKE WE USE TO. THEN I LOOK AT THE SHORT TIME WE HAD YOU. HAD I KNOWN, WOULD THINGS HAVE BEEN ANY DIFFERENT? WOULD WE THEN, HAD TRIED TO MAKE MORE TIME FOR EACH OTHER? YOU WOULD STILL WANT TO BE OFF, DOIN THE THINGS YO U LIKED TO DO. I'M SURE! LIFE IS SO BIZZARRE............ SO DIFFERENT FROM WHEN I GREW UP. SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO BE LITTLE AGAIN. I ENJOYED LIFE SO MUCH MORE THEN. NO WORRIES, ALTHOUGH I'M SURE GRANDMA HAD PLENTY TO WORRY ABOUT.
LATELY WHEN I GET DOWN & START MISSING YOU SO BAD & CRY. I THINK TO MYSELF,"WHAT ARE YOU CRYING ABOUT? THAT BOY HAS GOT A GOOD LIFE NOW, NO MORE PAIN , SORROW , STRESS, HE IS NOW HAPPY!!" I JUST WISH I HAD GONE FIRST BUB. I THINK I HAVE BEEN GIVEN A DOUBLE DOSE OF STRESS & PAIN, LOSING YOU. I THINK BACK 7 TRY TO REMEMBER WHAT MY LIFE WAS LIKE BEFORE I LOST YOU. I WAS SO MUCH HAPPIER, I DO KNOW THAT!!
WELL I HAVE TO RUN THIS LITTLE SISTER OF YOUR'S ALL DAY. THIS IS MY 1 DAY OFF TILL THANKSGIVING & I WILLL BE RUNNING THE WHOLE OF IT. 
I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING, MY SWEET, SWEET JORDAN!
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LOVE YOU, LIKE THERE IS NO TOMMORROW!  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
HI SWEETIE
IT'S BEEN AWHILE, I KNOW. NOW I HAVE ONLY A FEW, BUT I HAD TO GET ON HERE & LET YOU KNOW, THAT I HAVE BEEN VERY BUSY, BUT I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME STILL ALWAYS & PROBABLY SHAKING YOUR HEAD AT ME.IT WILL BE O.K. 
THE HRS. FOR THE WEEK, FOR THE DAY ARE LONG, BUT IF I CAN SURVIVE WHAT I HAVE, I CAN SURVIVE THIS ALSO.WHEN I GET REAL TIRED & MY FEET HURT FROM STANDING ON THEM FOR HRS. ON END, I THINK OF YOU!!IF YOU WERE HERE , YOU WOULD BE DOING THE SAME, WOULDN'T YA. YOU ALWAYS LIKED THAT "ALMIGHTY DOLLAR". HECK IF YOU WERE HERE, I'D SHARE SOME WITH YOU, LOL!! I AM TRYING TO GET SOME WHAT AHEAD. I KNOW MY JOB AT LONGABERGER WILL BE OVER VERY SOON. I AM COUNTING DOWN THE MONTHS NOW. SO MAYBE I WILL BE A LITTLE PREPARED!
I LOVE YOU, SO, SO MUCH!!I GET TO TALK TO THERSA "NICOLE'S MOM" ABOUT YOU. THAT IS GOOD FOR ME!
I HAVE TO GET READY FOR WORK, SO I'LL BE BACK SOON O.K.~!
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HEY, BUB  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
READING YOUR AUNTS LETTER TO YOU, HAS SPRUNG THE TEARS!!
WOW NOW WE HAVE TWO LITTLE PEOPLE GOING THRU MUCH OF THE SAME. BOTH ACT MORE OLDER THAN WHAT THEY ARE. YOU KNOW BUB, GROWING UP THE WAY I DID WAS NO PICNIC IN THE PARK. BUT I WILL TELL YOU THE KIDS ARE DIFFERENT TODAY. EVERYTHING LEAVES SCARS "FOREVER".WE HAVE SCARS ALSO, BUT WE ALSO HAD OUR GRANDMA SIDWELL, THAT COULD MAGICALLY MAKE OUR PAIN GO AWAY, EVEN FOR A LITTLE WHILE.
GRANDPARENTS TODAY"MOST", WE DO NOT GET TO PLAY OUR ROLE, LIKE THEY ONCE DID. YOU CAN SEE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ALL THESE KIDS BUB, WE NEED YOU & GOD MORE THAN EVER RIGHT NOW. THESE BABIES SHOULD NOT BE GOING THRU THIS. WHAT BAY, IS GOING THRU IS MUCH THE SAME AS LANE. I ASKED AMBER IF I COULD JUST BRING HER HERE & KEEP HER, SHE ASKED ME IF I WAS JUST FREAKEN NUTS. I HATE WHAT SHE GOES THRU. TIMMY IS ALSO GOOING THRU SOMETHING, HE IS VERY HATEFUL TOWARDS YOUR SISTER, MEAN TO EVERYONE. VERY ANGRY & HURTFUL. BAILEY JUST PLAIN, IS OUT SOMEWHERE, SHE CANT SEEM TO FIND HER WAY BACK. IT COMPLETELY BREAKS MY HEART. YOUR SISTER IS FINALLY GOING FOR COUNSELING. I PRAY SHE GOES THRU WITH IT. LOSING YOU HAS TORN US ALL APART, JUST GOING THRU WITH THE DAILY ACTIVITIES IS TOUGH.
I WISH THERE WAS SOMETHING I COULD DO FOR ALL OF THEM. LANE IS SUCH A SPECIAL LITTLE BOY. GOD , I HOPE HE IS HELPED BEFORE IT GETS TO FAR. SAME AS THE OTHER 2. DO I NEED TO GET HIM & TALK TO HIM?? MAYBE I NEED TO DO THAT. I WILL HAVE TO FIGURE IT ALLL OUT. I WILL WORK ON THAT. IT DOESN'T MEAN IT WILL WORK, BUT I CAN TRY.
I HAVE ANOTHER  ISSUE,SORT OF MAJOR.... I KNOW YOU PROBABLY THINK SO. YOUR DAD HAS BEEN ON MY HEART SO HEAVY, SOMETIMES I CANNOT BREATH. SOMETHING OR SHOULD I SAY SOMEONE, IS WORKING ON ME TO CALL HIM. I THINK HE NEEDS TO TALK. ABOUT YOU OF COURSE. I FEEL AS THOUGH HE IS GOING THRU SUCH A ROUGH TIME ABOUT YOU. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS LIKE THE ONES WHO LOST, DOES HE JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO? WE HAVE LOST YOU,MAYBE I CAN HELP HIM, I DJUST DON'T KNOW, WHAT TO DO. I AHVE PICKED UP THE PHONE SEVERAL TIMES TO CALL HIM. LIKE I WAS BEING FORCED TO DO SO. I DON'T EVER WANT TO CAUSE PROBLEMS FOR HIM AT HOME, THATS WHAT KEEPS ME FROM CALLING. BUT IT IS PURELY PLATONIC. THAT IS WHATS IN MY HEART! WHAT DO I DO?
I HAVE STARTED MY 2ND JOB. I WORKED ABOUT 22 HRS. THIS WEEK. JUST TRAINING, ORIENTATION. I HAVE TO GO BACK IN TODAY & FINISH MY WEB BASE, THEN I WILL BE SCHEDULED TO SHADOW. YOU KNEW HOW TO DO ALL OF THIS, DIDNT YOU?  I DONT KNOW YET HOW I WILL PULL ALL THIS OFF. BUT JORDAN, THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. SOME DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY WAY OF THINKING, BUT I KNOW YOU DO. I CANT IMAGINE BEING JOBLESS WHEN I GET LAYED OFF FROM LONGABERGER & THERE ARE 150-200 PEOPLE LOOKING FOR A JOB AROUND HERE, THAT IS SO SCARY, IT MAKES ME SICK. HOME DEPOT IS A VERY GOOD PLACE TO WORK. I EVEN GET BENEFITS BEING PART TIME. THEY TAKE GOOD CARE OF THEIR ASSOCIATES. I LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO WORK THERE. 2 OF MY GREATEST FRIENDS ARE THERE & YEAH, NICOLE'S MOM. SHE WILL BE THE ONE TO SHADOW ME, I AM HOPING.
WELL I BETTER HOP OFF HERE. I NEED TO GET A SHOWER 7 START THIS NEW DAY.I THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME. I MET A LADY WHO WORKS WITH ME LAST NIGHT WHO HAS LOST 2 SONS. SHE TOLD ME THE STROY & CRIED. SHE HUGGED ME & SAID, NOW I KNOW WHO I CAN COME TO, WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. GOD, SENT HER MY WAY, I JUST KNOW IT. I THINK I WILL HAVE SOMETHING POSTED, STEPHANIE HOUSE MY HR WILL DO IT, WE NEED TO KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE LOST A CHILD IN THERE, SO WE ALL KNOW WHERE TO TURN ON OUR BAD DAYZ. THOSE ARE THE ONES WHO WILL TRULY HELP US THRU OUR DARK HRS. WHAT DO YOU THINK?
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART!!
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Thinkin' of You  / Aunt Sheila

Course, we're always thinkin' of you aren't we?? Went to the Opry last nite with Grandma and Grandpa, me, johnny, lane, logan, collin and jen! The boys were soo good! and your Uncle Randy was AWESOME!! YOU WOULD HAVE LOVED IT!! We gave him a standing ovation! Then the family that puts on the opry(the Father) wrote and sang a song, "Learning to Live Without You", I cried all the way thru it... for you, for your Momma... it was about a man learning to live without the love of his life, his wife, but it fit your Momma as well.
Bub, I know you have been watching over so many of us... I KNOW THIS.... with everything in me. I've been praying all day, to our Lord and to you.... please... watch over my little Lane! He was born on the same day as you and I know that with that connection, as well as the one your Mom and I have always had, that if anyone can help, you and our Lord can. He is such a confused, disturbed, smart little man... and he is struggling with everything in his little body, to UNDERSTAND. He was brainwashed in Texas by someone who claims to love him more than anyone in his life and since coming back, his life has been upside down and full of turmoil, confusion, anger. He witnessed soo many things and was told so many things and no 6 yr. old child should ever be subjected to these things. Help his Mommy and him, they are struggling real bad. 
Thats one thing I can say about you and your Mom, struggles were few and of minimal hardship between the two of you. Show him the way Jordy, help calm this little guy! He should be enjoying life as a child, but instead he suffers as adults suffer. He is way older than his years here on earth!! I am filled with hatred right now.... hatred for the ones that put this uncertainty, fear, anger, guilt into this child. I'm trying to get a grip on it, to not do anything to cause more heartache, but it's hard, ya know?? Yea, you know... You know all about someone dealing with hatred, you softened her, now soften me young man!
Anita was talking about you & Halloween...do you remember when we went to the haunted Jailhouse?? You got a good laugh at your aunt when she got the beejeebies scared out of her, didn't you
then we went back to your house for a weenie roast... those were the days huh bub??
Well, i know I have asked you for alot...it's not a miracle or anything i need....just your love shining down on your little cousin, to warm him, to calm him. Thank you bubby..... OXOXOXO from here in my little 2 rm apt. to you.... in the glorious everafter!!!Love you!!

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SO MANY NEED YOU BUB!  / YOUR MOMMA I. LOVE YOU SO! (MOM)
WHERE DO I BEGIN? I GUESS I REALLY CAN'T SAY ALOT ON HERE, BUT WOW!!!! WHAT IS GOING ON WITH EVERYONE THESE DAYZ? I AM NOT UNDERSTANDING....WE HAVE SO MANY THINGS GOING ON IN THIS FAMILY. I THINK EACH & EVERYONE HAS AN ISSUE AT THIS POINT & TIME.I AM JUST HOPING THAT YOU & GOD ARE WATCHING OVER US ALL. DECISIONS, DECISIONS, DECISIONS!! O.K. THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT.WHAT WOULD YOU DO & SAY IF YOU WERE HERE BUB? I'M SURE YOU WOULD HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. YOU JUST NEVER JUDGED ANYONE & I AM PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT.
CHIP, THOMAS & KIM STOPPED HERE LAST NIGHT. I WAS SHOCKED. CHIP HAD CALLED & ASKED ME TO GO SEE MISS KATHY WITH HIM THE NEXT TIME HE WENT. I TOLD HIM I WOULD AS LONG AS I WASN'T WORKING. THEN THEY STOPPED & THE TWO BOYS, WENT DOWN STAIRS & GOT YOUR LEGOS OUT. THEY LOVE YOUR LEGOS. I AM SO GLAD I NEVER GOT RID OF THEM.THEY JUST REMINDED ME OF YOU WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE SITTING THERE FOR HOURS PLAYING WITH THEM.CHIP REMINDS ME OF YOU. THOSE DARN FRECKLES ARE HYSTERICAL. JUST LIKE YOU HAD...
I TALKED TO BAILEY ON THE PHONE YSTERDAY. I WANT SO BAD FOR AMBER TO GET A PLACE & GET OUT OF WHERE SHE IS. THEY ARE WORKING ON IT. HOPEFULLY IT WILL ALL WORK OUT.THEM STAYING IN COSHOCTON IS A BIG MISATKE THOUGH. THERE ARE NO JOBS THERE!! OHIO IS BAD ENOUGH, BUT IT IS REAL BAD THERE.
I HAVE ALOT TO DO TODAY.I AM GOING TO GO SEE UNCLE JOHN. HE WANTS TO GO TO THE CEMETERY & THEN WE ARE GOING TO GO LOOK AT A HOUSE HE WANTS TO BID ON. HE IS ONLY HOME FOR 24 HRS. THEN OCTOBER 31 ST. HE WILL BE BACK HOME FOR GOOD. I AM SO EXCITED, I CAN'T STAND IT.ALL OF US ARE COMING BACK TOGETHER YA KNOW. ONE BY ONE. EXCEPT FOR TIM RIGHT NOW & UNCLE MIKE, BUT ONE DAY WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER AGAIN. 
I AM SO THANKFUL JORDAN FOR THIS FAMILY. I KNOW YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD. EVERYONE IS GROWING UP & EVERYONE IS SO CLOSE. A FEW OF US STILL HAVE SOME MAJOR DECISIONS TO MAKE IN OUR LIVES, BUT BY GOD WE ARE ALL HERE FOR EACH OTHER, NO MATTER WHAT!! I COULD NOT ASK FOR A BETTER FAMILY. NO ARGUING, NO FIGHTING......... ALL LOVE!! LOSING YOU, HAS MADE SO MANY OPEN THEIR EYES. LIFE IS JUST WAY TO   SHORT!
WELL I BETTER GET MY BATH, I AMTAKING OFF EARLY THIS MORNING. I HAVE PLANS FOR TONIGHT & I WANT TO GET EVERYTHING DONE BEFORE I LEAVE. BE WITH ME TONIGHT & HELP ME WIN, BIG!! O.K. JUST KEEP ME SAFE & GIVE ME WHAT I NEED O.K. WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT ARE ALWAYS GOOD!
WITH ALL MY LOVE HEART & SOUL,
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Halloween / Aunt Anita Luv N. Miss U. (Aunt)
I was just thinking about one halloween/trick or treat night at grandma's. You were just a little terd. I can't exactly remember what you were wearing, I am thinking either super man or a bumble bee. It was before you lived in a very big town, you were so excited.  And then, it's like the next year, and you went trick or treating in a bigger town, and you decided you didn't ever need to go back out to grandma's to trick or treat, no way.  You had never seen so much candy in all your life.  I want those days back jordy. When you, your sister and I were close. The early years where maybe we could have made a difference. And it's too late. So, now, the only thing to do is to try to make a difference in someone else's life.  To not be afraid to reach out, not care what anyone thinks. Not to back down when a "kid" tells me to mind my own business.  I know I have got to find the words, the words that will make 1, even just 1 kid think, that it's not worth it. Right? I tried to do that with you a year before you left us. I know you remember.  But yeah, I was a drinker too, bet you thought your aunt was cool? No way. And she got her first DUI one year almost to the day, before you died. That is when I could have made a difference.  But I didn't did I?  I am so sorry for failing you.  I love you so much it hurts. I loved you all your life.   Now help me to help others. Please. I am here. I know you will show me how. Night sweetie. Hugs and kisses.   Me Close

I WOULD LKE TO THINK THIS IS WHERE OUR CHILDREN ARE  / Diane/ Mom To Angel Jimmy Brozzetti


I would like to think this is what heaven looks like. And that all our children are climbing the highest mountain looking over us and waiting until we are together again.
They say that there is a thin veil that separates us from one another.
Until the day we are all reunited with our loved ones I wish us some peace.
Keeping you & your family & friends in my prayers
Peace & Love
Diane (Jimmy’s Mom Forever)
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6 YEARS AGO  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
BUB,
I CAN'T HELP BUT TO THINK BACK 6 YEARS AGO TODAY. I REMEMBER IT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY.
I WAS HOME FROM WORK THAT DAY. MARK WAS THERE ALSO. WE HAD JUST MET.THE REASON I WAS HOME FROM WORK, WAS BECAUSE MY LITTLE BOY WAS OUT PLAYIN AROUND THAT EVENING, JUMPIN AROUND ON A TRAMPOLINE AT DUSTIN SHIPLEY'S NEIGHBOR'S HOUSE (BACK WHEN YOU & DUSTIN WERE GOOD FRIENDS) YOU GOT KICKED IN THE MOUTH  BY A GIRL!! BOY SHE LEFT A BIG GAP IN THAT LIP OF YOURS. I WAS SO UPSET. WE TOOK YOU TO THE ER. THEY TOOK YOU IN & LOOKED IT OVER & SAID STITCHES. I WAS INSTANTLY READY TO PASS OUT. I GOT SO, SO SICK, I HAD TO LEAVE THE ROOM. I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO BE IN THERE ALONE, SO MARK STAYED IN THERE WITH YOU. YOU TWO REALLY DIDN'T EVEN KNOW EACH OTHER YET. BUT HE STAYED WITH YOU, WHILE I WENT NUTS IN THE WAITING ROOM. I COULDN'T STAND TO SEE MY BABY BLEEDING. WOW, & TO THINK THAT'S HOW YOUR LIFE ENDED. WHAT IS FAIR ABOUT THAT? NOTHING!! 
ANYWAY I WILL LOSE ALL THOUGHT'S ON THIS IF I GET INTO ALL THAT.......
YOU ENDED UP GOING TO SCHOOL. MARK HAD LEFT TO GO TO THE STORE TO GET US SOMETHING FOR BREAKFAST. WHILE HE WAS GONE, GRANMA CALLED & SAID "TURN ON YOUR T.V" SHE WAS SO UPSET & EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME. WHEN I TURNED IT ON, I THOUGHT I WOULD DIE. I COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT I WAS SEEING. I HAD THAT AWFUL FEELING IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH & THEN I JUST CRIED. SEEEING ALL THAT HAPPENING , ALL THOSE LIVES, THAT SOMEONE ELSE TOOK. MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL OF THEM.....................
YOU CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL & OF COURSE IT WAS TALK EVERYWHERE. EVERYONE WAS SO AFFECTED, WHETHER WE KNEW ANYONE PERSONALLY OR NOT. YOU WANTED TO GO TO THE MALL. WE TOOK YOU OUT & THEY WERE CLOSED. EVERYONE CLOSED THEIR STORES. THE GAS STATIONS STARTED RAISING GAS PRICES TO LIKE 3.00 A GALLON, YEAH, I KNOW THAT'S WHAT THEY ARE NOW!IT WAS A MESS ALL A ROUND.
THOSE VICTIM'S FAMILIES JUST WAITING TO HEAR NEWS ON THEIR LOVED ONES. THE WAITING  HAD TO TAKEA TOLL ON THEM ALL.
JUST WNATED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT THIS. I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS DAY , BUB! YOU WERE A BIG PART OF IT THAT DAY.
I LOVE YOU SO, SO MUCH! 
FOREVER WE WILL BE, WHETHER YOU ARE THERE & I AM HERE, WE WILL ALWYAS BE WITH EACH OTHER & I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS LOOK OUT FOR ME, BABY!
WITH ALL MY LOVE HEART & SOUL. 
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HI SWEETIE  / YOUR MOMMA (MOM)
HEY THERE MY LIL SWEETHEART!
SO........................ I BELIEVE~ I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE YOU ARE, YEAH THAT'S RIGHT , RIGHT HERE WITH ME ALWAYS!! I DON'T WANT YOU TO EVER THINK, THAT I AHVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU FOR ONE MOMENT. YEAH THINGS ARE GOING ON IN MY LIFE~ SOME YOU MAY NOT APPROVE OR DO! 
BUSY IS MY MIDDLE NAME, BUT I KNOW YOU ARE ALRIGHT WITH THAT. I GOT ANOTHER CALL ABOUT THAT SECOND JOB, I WASN'T GOING TO CALL BACK, BUT THEN I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, THAT HAD IT NOT BEEN MEANT TO BE, I WOULD NOT HAVE RECIEVED IT AT ALL.
I CANNOT DEFINE WHAT IT IS I'D LIKE TO SPEND THE REST OF MY TIME HERE DOING. HELPING OTHER PEOPLE WOULD BE ONE WAY TO PUT IT. WHEN YOU DIED , I JUST WANTED TO GO TELL THE WORLD, EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY COULD, "HOW TO SURVIVR" . IT'S FUNNY NOW SORT OF, THAT WAS WHNE I WAS STILL IN SHOCK & BLINEDED BY ALOT. NOW, HECK BUB, THERE ARE DAYZ I COULD HELP SOMEONE I'M SURE, BUT NOW I AM JUST TRYING TO KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE THE WATER. I GO UNDER QUIT OFTEN & FIGHT TO PULL BACK UP & BREATHE AGAIN. IT'S REALLY QUITE SCARY. I NEED MORE THAN EVER RIGHT NOW, STRENGHT~ I THOUGHT I WAS SO STRONG~LOL!!! IT WORKED FOR A LITTLE WHILE. THIS LIFE OF MINE, YEAH I KNOW "IS WHAT I'VE MADE IT" CAN'T WE JUST SKIP THE HEARTBREAK, HEARTBROKEN PART, FAST FORWARD~ TO THE HAPPY SMILING TIMES, ALREADY!!!LIKE THE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN..................... I WILL BIDE BY TIME, I WILL WAIT FOR MY TIME,I WILL BE READY FOR MY TIME..... THE SECOND I AM THERE WITH YOU~UNDESCRIBABLE!!!
WELL I THINK THAT LIL SISTER OF UR'S IS FINALLY READY TO GO. GOSH, JORDAN SHE EVEN HAS TO TAKE HER MUSIC TO THE BATHROOM LIKE YOU DID. NOT QUITE AS HEAD BANGING LOUD, BUT ALL THE SAME!
I LOVE YOU MY SWEET,SWEET ANGEL!
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